SHE left me...

Want to smoke when it's rainin', just crying and tearfall...

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I'm just a freak! Anybody... please... kill me....please...

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Physycally dependence from HER... It's SMTH new, so hard...

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It is so interesting, can I do impossible?...

запись создана: 23.07.2005 в 18:32

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I became vulnerable... SHE can to kill me now... that can't be earlier...I've fallen...

запись создана: 22.07.2005 в 23:12

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Only becouse of HER I'm still alive, I wanted to die, but will not do so to thanx HER... have no to lose... My life is not mine...just an ideally warrior)

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I recovered that I fighted with 'em... So good) My hands was in blood... I became more happy ...

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Cause of HER, I forget my freaky idea...

I'm broken, and should do something to be fixed)

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Risk

Tomorrow I will risk my life...

The chance of good is so little...

So must say bye to this diary....

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Problem

Should I close myself from anyone, or shouldn't...

Hate is only my sense, and THEY shouldn't see my weakness...

Why parents hide all sharp things from me?...

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Simple dream

There is only one dream for more than 1,5 months. It is just DEATH... Nothing more... What a much looser, that can't die...